#idk what i'm talking about. time to slep

[hi2k]

it is hard to not feel bitter constantly because a bad thing happened how do people manage

[ram-de]

[read] heartsong thoughts vomit (pt. 2)

Oh shit. OH SHIT. I KNEW IT... CHRIS AND TANNER :-(

There's a lot of callbacks to how it was with robbie... Elizabeth is the one accepting robbie first wasn't she? Even before ox does. Letting him help with dinner. It was tradition... Man...

I can understand rico's frustration on holding on to his, resentment because FUCKING THOMAS BENNETT.

My son robbie😭

THIS RITUAL IS BASICALLY DOING DRUGS?? LMAOO

I love my tsundere grumpy uncle gordo hsgshsjsh he's so funny sometimes

I need Kelly's courting story being told in depth in a separate book UGHHH I NEED THE SWOON. Then again it's. It's basically happening again so. HSGZHSJSJHS AREBT THEY'RE THE SWEETEST??? ROBBIE IS SO WHIPPEDDDD like he was

AWWWW THIS IS THE ASININE SWEET robbie....

PEAK FIRST DATE SHSGSJSJ I'M GOING FERAL NOBODY TAKES THEM AWAY FROM ME!

Robbie and mark moments sghsgshsh THIS BOOK IS SO GOOD lots of dynamics explored. Afterall Robbie stayed with Mark during the whole 3 years pack... And they were close!! I think! (I don't remember ravensong I was too consumed by T***** hatred)

Have I said the casual touch/forehead kisses is really. Sweet to see. Like. I LOVE WOLVES!! packpackpack

Hsgsjdjdh see what I say about robbie being glass cannon😭 that's so out of the pocket!! Lmao

FIREFLIES SCENE?? They they pulled the classics... I LOVE THEM YOUR HONOR

the thought of them yelling without clothes is so😭 fucking werewolves... damn this is the most that Kelly have talked. In one breath. Props to you my love Kelly. TIME R WOLF??? He's. He's cute.

I always loved the sleepover scene... Pile of wolves just slep. THEY'RE SO SOFT...

H,,, WHAT ARE YOU SAYING CARTER?😭 HEGFGSHSUDH HE'S INSANE HSGXBXBDINEKXJDJE WATERSPORTS? DD. S? SDHJD

OX IS A MENACEE DHHSJSJS

Chris and tanner you two have my heart and whole they're so funny dhsgdgshsjd #temahumans

Wait that's true Chris why didn't they call a biologist or someone from the scientific field to like... Examine it, cure it and take away their memories after it's gone...

THIS PACK IS A MENACEE OH LORD I LOVE THEM

DAMN RIGHT ROBBIE YOU ARE GOING TO PROVIDE. Robbie. Wolf wolf. Strong wolf. Wolf provide. packpackpack.

Fucking Thomas benett... His letters to Kelly's future... it's overwhelming with love and adoration I teared up a bit... Fuck me man. he did acknowledge of losing sight of what's important. that's good.

BUT ALSO ITS QUITE CURIOUS WHY HE DIDN'T SEND ANY LETTERS TO MARK'S Partner. Hmm? HMM?? YOU'RE ON THIN ICE. EVEN WORSE. HE ACKNOWLEDGED IT BUT. BARELY DID NOTHING TO GORDO AFTER HE RETURNS? HMM?

Of course you are loved robbie aaaaa :(

Abel Bennett told a pregnant lady to leave??? Because??? He didn't want her to bring trouble for his pack??? Yeah idk maybe the bennetts have always been assholes and hypocrites. Abel and Thomas both.

Timber wolf is cute but isn't it kinda messed up that Carter was attached to him when this wolf has always been a wolf😭 their first meeting... We're not threading the line of beast love are we... idk how book 4 is gonna touch on this lmao (well not as messed up as ox meeting joe with the age gap in book 1 but🐺)

If fucking Thomas Bennett is complicit in all the Abel secrecy and whatnot. His hand is not clean from blood😐 so unfair that he could be messing a lot of things up and die not facing the consequences his family had to endure. Not apologizing to gordo, absolved of his sins (since he's in alpha haven or something appearing in Robbie's dreams) like. Fucking hell I hate thomas bennett

I really miss the presence of Joe's character😔 I think by now he's really delegated into barely present side character, "ox's mate" or "the other alpha". Ox is the one who made all the callings. I... Man. Where is my cheerful and teasing son... He's so. I don't know. So... Bland. An imitation of the original flavor joe...

TIMBER WOLF SHSGSJSJ love u

Oh there he is. Finally the author remembered to utilize Joe as an alpha... JOE:( joe's mirroring thomas kneeling before gordo. The difference is Joe apologized to Robbie while fucking Thomas Bennett just want to use gordo, even then that's after threatening him. Fucking Thomas Bennett.

ok... Wow... joe you were really threading the line on being the next Thomas Bennett. Because I sympathize with robbie... Like I did gordo's. Man... :-(

Man carter really fell in love to a freaking wolf... 😭 and by that I mean literal wolf... Werewolf sure but never shifted to human... ERM...

I can't be immersed in the dramatic scenes when I kept imagining the omega kids and Robert livingstone and michelle just standing there like🧍🏻 waiting for ox to end his speech or robbie to stop crying and like...

Wait WAITTT STOPP PULLING THOSE MARVEL POST-CREDIT SCENES STUNTS AGHHHHHHH ITS NOT A MOVIE GRRRRRRR the epilogue should've been about robbie and Kelly

IT ENDED??? AAAAAAAAA😭😭😭 I think this is the best installment of the series so far... Robbie... Kelly... Like even though I don't like the premise (memory loss) I felt like it handled better than I expected. Tackling issues like what makes someone be if not without their minds and memories. Like... Meeting each member pack, some characters went through a lot of developments which I love love love, depth into Elizabeth grief and motherhood, Jessie and Dominique characters, the townies, rico's antics outside of being comedy relief, though other characters felt more bland? Shallow? (eg. Joe until nearing the end). Packs intimacy is being peak... Kelly is the softest of all because his love is pure and enduring...

I mean it when I say this brought a lot of fresh air and angst-wise it's. Heartsong isn't a neverending emotional torture book like ravensong is. It's such a relief after ravensong. Gordo's grumpy old man antics is endearing with Mark being happy after all of that. What else. Handling of villain may be a bit ??? At times it felt like they're only there when plot needed them to be.

And robbie. Robbie... My love he is everything... It sucks that he had to relive being lost, though it also doubles the impact when he got it all back. I teared up. I... I love heartsong sm....

Fuck me. The letters. Fuck you tj klune... Thomas Bennett is a scum, mayhaps unintentionally manipulative, and lost. He is all but perfect. This has been repeated millionth of times. But damn if the letter didn't. Help me see his, human, side. It's raw. It's a letter from a loving father, a loving husband, a loving brother. I, ugh... It just pours love and adoration and hope... Like how I perceived him in Book 1 before, yeah.

...

BROTHERSONG SPOILER I FORGOT TO PUT IT IN THE OTHER POST /////!!!!!!! /! ////////////////////////////

I really want to make write a full-on retrospective or something. But... Man... That's. I feel like I need to re-read it properly to capture the justice of how. How beautiful the story is. Irks aside, annoyment aside, resentment aside, I really love the characters. They're the life of the story, they're dynamics, they're lively, they're humans (or wolfs), and they grow. Reading this has been a journey. Like man, I can't believe I saw how little Joe grow from this (previously traumatized) adorable kid into the all-encompassing, loving and caring man. Or Ox, who went from having only his mother by his side, to Gordo's, to the Bennets, to the Alpha that he is? I... UGH... I feel like it deserve another post. I still haven't read lovesong and feralsong...

WAIT I SHOULD BE WRITING THIS FOR THE BROTHERSONG PSOT FUCK

[curiousskelekitty]

Hey, I'm sleep deprived and blasted on weed, let's see the reasons why I think I'm autistic

I'm awakemd super from a super high nap. And it's by the smoke and smell of incenst and can't get back to sleep until incest was out and fan on

Eye contact? Either really focused on making it and not listening or focused on conversation and eyes Drifting away

Say exact same way of hello at job

And other things

Sensitive to wet and cold so much that made it part of her image

Staying awake to make this list

Even though I'm supe r high and running on 3 hors sleep, latte, and pizza and 4 hb eggs

Adhd 

Special interest in pokemon most of 26 year life

Creative

And loves child things like video game sand toys, special plush toys

And weird sex too

Like even when child me MASTURBAGED WITHOUT KNOW WHAT IT WAS

sorry tmi 

Holy ahky I discovered something abot me that I didn't know

Wow

Anyways

Loves reading

And loud music during loud lunch during hs

Sensitive to loud noises like toilet as child

An dlole sonic

Oh shit

It late

Waited blanket for win! Special as adult

Fighting slep to write this once again

Super shy

Talked in labg with sister when 

Adhd

Goes to speech therapy 

Because I don't talk

Or maybe lisp

Idk

Imaginary friends until second grade

First friend grade younger 

No friends in my grade until MIDLE SCHOOL

I think

Sorry no remember 

This list loooooong

Writing still very clean

Nose so dry

Oh shkt Don her 

He didn't say anything about me being up

I'm supposed to be asleep

Sh

lol

Argue with my self 

Like all the time

I even fight with my ocs

lol

Autism brain go

Special cartoon likeys 

Just explained idea for video for YouTube to boo and we might collaborate

My mouth so drunk 

Suuuuuper sensitive to socks on feet at night! Even in winter

But can't walk out iputaide without shoes 

Can feel EVERYTHKNG 

Loves swimming

BUT NOT RAIN

RAIN MAKE USBWEY

sinuses dry as hell  I can feel the air coming in my nose and down my throat

Hereditary 

Also likes anime and furries

Has phases of certain likes or Dislikes

Like love reading but then don't love reading

Hating spicy for most of life

But finding a love from some as long as there's flavors 

Mexico is so pretty

Making list like this

All the time

Will hypet focus on certain things for maybe a week

And it goes in curses 

Ow though hurt for typing 

Do stretches kids

Never admitted to watching porn whe her life insists of romances 

Daydreamer

Ever since litter

First lover

Cucumber Larry

When he gets suck on by giat alien ad hero

That turned me on

AS A KID IN CHURCH

not even four years old

wft

This might be really revealing about me and my life

…

Okay

This Is where I add more to the title of this video

To warn me of the dangers

Of whatever the fuck I'm on

Could probably make this list over 200 points 

Listn3s to music at night 

Might be slightly dyslexic 

Swimming

Vocal Stimson

When found out about stimming

Showed more stimming

So mad

Just took like 1 min to fix stimmong to swimming 

Make little songs whole life

Wow hide in DC bathroom. And sing sad songs to my self

Don't really to that anymore

Ah shit it's late

I need to pee

Sleeps with toys still

Like stuffed animals

Once could not fall sleep until Carla into toybox

Only woke up because got hot

BISEXUAL AD FUCK

when I was little I was looking g in the mirror and ask if I was more otm boy or girly Gil and decided I was in the middle

If that not nonbinary as FUCK than what is

Thinking g about if the video went famous and FIL saw and reacted

Whole family know

Please be warned 

Really sensitive about certain flavores in certain tempt

Those might go on Tumblr though

Incous make a lookout of people laugh 

And no one would know

Damn thos list loomg

STRETCH TIME

often godb what if whole world kno

I could go on and on

But I think I will conclude here 

Thank you everyone for reading

Good night

LoL

You wish

I'm very empathic

I forget words all the time

Especially with age

Always had bad memory

Selective hearing

Forms who they are around eho they with

But my baby let me be me❤️

Sinsirve tk sounds

I'm probably going to talk to my therapist about this list next week

Realized made horrible ablist joke in my head and realized it and was like tf why

Intrusive thoughts

Holly fuck

I can do this

And this

And

This 

So easily 

I love animals 

Dep3ndent and independent at the same time

Anxiety 

Depression 

I'm still making the list dumbadd

My bad

Too much of a topical thing like lotion makes me feel icky 

Hated mosquitoe spray because of sticky residue and smell

Hayes perfume

Sensitive to some smells, like perfume

Body pray okay tho

And candles

Loves sweets

LOVES TO READ

Can't focus on reading

Super aware of body

Hates being touched unexpected or by stranger

Said loved all colors and didn't have official favorite color until like first grade because didn't want to hurt other colors favorite

Still doesn't have least favorite color

"Lazy"

But I'm not suppsoes to coll me that

Realistic

Made day dreams befo3e bed every night

Had one going on for about a month

Googles everything 

Okay I'll go to 200

Then I'll go to sleep

Lover of computers when little

Still love them

Have several unwritten stories to tell, including like three books and three or more wannabe books

Wrote toriko slitty fanfiction church

Drew a the time

Sonic the hedged hog fan

Loves pun so much

Made up "Copper later" for funny goodbye

Lives all her sisters

And all bet peanut

Hates pumpkin guts and still hate the feeling of them

Picky eater

May13b first 2023

Special interest in music

Went into band for school ad a trumpet and played for most of life until high school graduates but was never good at it.

That sucks

I could've learned how to song better

Now that I realize my voice is good and can be better

Hates needles 

Squeamish 

Spiritual 

Loves crystals Spiritually

Believes in a carefree, unknowing god

Two more to go

AUTISM BLAST

Weird obsession with sex since really little

Oh shkt

Just remembered something

That I never told anyone! Fucm 

I won't tell you guys

Never

Okay 

Good night

I love you